The Doer and the Doing
Excerpts from my book “Heal Your Mind, Heal Your Life”
Chapter 6 — The Awakening
I decided to take my sudden illness as a blessing in disguise. Here are the good things that came of what happened:
1. I grew closer with my mom, who was taking care of me
2. I grew stronger in prayer, and was able to see the power of my voice. Instantaneous, it was.
3. I was able to explore my inner world, as I avoided mirrors during this time, and so avoided interacting with illusion
4. I was able to hone the power of my breath. Nose to stomach, nose to stomach. With the gaze fixed on a certain point, you nose to stomach. And then you can either repeat the Maha Mantra or the phrase “I am playing a role.”
“I am playing a role.”
5. I started up yoga again, which I had previously neglected. Probably one of the things that earned me this time period in the first place. But more than that, I now started doing asanas upside-down, for the first time in my life. One more off the bucket list.
6. I had decided what I wanted to do next with my life. It had dawned on me during this time period how clear my purpose suddenly was — to teach others on the importance of dis-identifying with all the various experiences we encounter in life, and to teach others how to heal their minds, so as to reunite with their true selves again — and to live from their hearts.
They say our experiences make us who we are. To me, the soul is who we are. And the soul chooses our experiences.
7. I spotted a baby picture of me one morning, and then had a fascinating meditation on my life later on in baby pose. I realized that I had forgiven all my experiences, had come to terms with all of them, and was now ready to completely move on, in full gratitude. I also learned that when I was younger, I had vowed to never forget my position as God’s princess. And now I can time travel back to that thought form, and bring it back here into the physical, and my reality is changed.
Talk about womb healing.
8. I’m writing this book! This is something I had wanted to do since the summer of 2020, the summer I came out with my first published personal self-developmental novel, A Rainbow Thing With Wings.
9. I discovered, even moreso, the importance of grounding. Little gemini me yearns to be doing something all the time, even if it’s going in circles about what to do. Unfortunately, this means that grounding is not our strong suit. So hot tea, yoga, abhyanga massages, reiki, red light therapy, deep breathing, stretching, meditation, chanting, and the like, have been the only focuses of mine. Along with learning more about human anatomy, such as the vagus nerve, and various types of healing, such as Sudarshan Kriya Yoga, one of the best yogic practices to open your airway and balance both sides of the brain.
10. I dropped my ego. Again. This time, in the name of slowing down. When you are unwell, it is a time not to identify with anything — neither the mind nor the body — and to relax into yourself as much as possible, while taking the necessary steps to continue the process of your cellular rewiring. This is my fourth major ego death that has occurred over the past four years.
Chapter 7 — The doer and the doing
All parts and parcels of nature — from birds to bees to trees to apes to different sizes and shapes — all actually understand that they are not doing anything at all. They leave the doing up to the true Doer — the creator of all.
Human beings, however, are the only species that have the highest intelligence and the lowest capability to actually use it.
We identify life from our externalities rather than allowing for this to be our own internal little adventure. When we identify life from our externalities, we forget who we are — the ultimate Jiva within.
In truth, we do not control our outer experiences. No matter how much control we want to have, this will only result in anxiety. We do not control anything outside of our minds, and we are constantly being controlled by the Divine, like puppets on string. The only control we have, is to realize that, and live our lives built around that Truth.
It is as humbling as it is freeing. To know we don’t have control of much, and to live in a way that harmonizes with the love-stuff present within our souls, which is indestructible compared to the pangs and trivialities of the physical body or mind. This is actually the way we have full control of our lives: by taking control of our minds first, and optimizing the health of our minds.
It is in this regard that life should be lived. Gratitude is the currency of the Universe, and it is the way that we can actually identify the truth within all of our circumstances. We should rise early as a token of our gratitude. Understanding that the soul within is a part and parcel of the Supersoul, or God (like a slice of cherry pie from the whole pie), we should make nurturing the soul the main priority, and then the body and the mind will both equally and naturally follow.
I have heard many say that they have awakened simply due to their yogic practices. I have heard others find God in rock bands or on stage or in flashes of light.
Others have awakened due to the desperate need to find suitable answers to their burning questions — like who are we, what happens after we die, and what is the need for so much damn suffering in this world.
I can answer the last one from a personal perspective — when we suffer, we grow. It’s that simple. The body and mind are forced to find the soul. It is through transformation that alchemy happens. Otherwise, nothing would be able to be transmuted — fall to winter, winter to spring, and spring to summer, which is the polar opposite of winter.
And so, transformation happens.
Change is the most obvious natural law.
